Some day, I want to be selfish. I won't reply to any text. I won't pick up the calls. I will disappear whenever I want to. I will just leave people hanging. I won't ask if they're okay. I will cancel plans on the last minute, I will bail on my friends when they need me. Basically, I will ignore the one that I love, push them away and turn up again whenever I please. Just like what everyone doing to me. But deep inside I know I won't do these things because I know how much it hurts to be waiting, to be pushed away, only to get yourself fucked over again.